Sexy Mouse. [Last Blog]
For over a month now, I never dared visit your tumblr, twitter, or facebook. I never even tried to ask about you. But I think for a couple of times, I blogged about you, tweeted you, or even texted you. But this morning, I wanted to ask something. I dunno. The thought just slipped my mind. So I asked my friends, “Is she still wearing the necklace I gave her?” I don’t even know if I wanted to hear the answer. If I’m ready for the answer. What if they answer me with a YES, should I be happy about that? Or what if I get a NO, should I be sad? I dunno. And as 99% expected, I got a “NO”.
And a lot of reasons entered my mind. NO because you hate me. Or is that word too mild? NO because you don’t have it at all. Maybe this time you even looked for a snatcher and voluntarily gave that. NO because you have a new girl who’s more jealous than I am. NO because for the nth time, it faded again. And you’re too lazy to go to SM and have it cleaned. NO because Lola Pising’s cat saw it and ate it. Reasons like that.
I think that this simple fact made a lot of sense. I think that it made me realize that hey, it is goddamn over, get a fuckin’ life. Sorry, I guess there’s just a fist-sized part of me that hasn’t let go of you yet. So I think with this in mind, I have to clean my room now. There’s just a lot of YOU here — the big doodle on my wall, Pong on top of my cabinet, our couple watch, our picture in my wallet, your cute shirts, your flipflops, your toothbrush, your hankies, your cheesy text messages, and for crying out loud, a thousand memories of you. Which all means I’m gonna have a hard time cleaning up. Baaah!
Inhaaaaaaaale, exhaaaaaaaale. Smile. Gotta get moving. I’ll start cleaning now. :) Always take care, my dear Ib.
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And to my dear followers, if you must know, this blog was created for her. So if I started this with me being so deeply inlove, I’ll end this with me letting go of her.
Thank you Tumblr, for all the emotions we’ve shared. :)
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